Crafty, Not Artistic9:14:00 AM
|This picture honestly has nothing to do with this post, I just want y'all to see how cute I looked on the Fourth of July.|
I've had PaxPrints open for a couple of months now. I like designing my prints, so it doesn't really phase me if people don't buy anything - that wasn't my original plan with getting more seriously into this whole graphic design thing anyways. I'm just kinda like, well this is fun, and people have shown interest in purchasing from me, so I might as well.
Here's the thing though: like I said, I love what I do, but I do get frustrated with myself sometimes. It's pretty easy to look out on Instagram or Etsy and see a bunch of people who are doing what I'm doing but about a million times better. Just earlier this week, I was at a friend's place and saw a watercolor painting done by her cousin, and I was like "well, I give up." I have honestly felt a real lack of motivation the past few weeks because of my own feelings of inadequacy. I've only had one order that wasn't from someone I know, and she didn't even leave me a review, so who knows, maybe she hated it. :(
If you read my blogpost about not having any talent, I am feeling that in full force lately. Partly because I have bought a new succulent recently and it's dying (how is this even possible????) so clearly I'm not a good gardener, and partly because I'm not actually artistic. In high school, I toyed with the idea of doing graphic design or something related as a profession, but I eventually came to the conclusion that I'm not artistic, I am crafty. I can do random little things like knitting a scarf and I have cute handwriting, but as much as I think that someday I'll be a mega-successful blogger and Etsy shop owner, I know deep in my heart that this isn't true.
Which I'm okay with. Sorta. It's really fun when you have a semester left of college and you still have like 5 different things that you want to do in life so you don't actually know what your doing and your whole life is a ball of stress accumulating and accumulating until you are forced to write a blogpost about it.
I'm also feeling "crafter's block" (I don't know if this is a real thing but to me it's a real thing) lately. Which is somewhat convenient because people keep buying custom things from me, so then they can give me some direction of what they want. And I enjoy making custom prints (so *cough cough* if you wanna buy one from me let me know *cough cough*).
I'm honestly probably writing this all because I have a migraine and my cat keeps meowing at me really loud just so I'll pet him and being an adult is a scary and wonderful thing. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you're not alone in this whole adult thing - I'm not alone in this whole adult thing. Even though I'm about to graduate from college and I like to think I'm a very put together person with my life planned out, right now I'm going against what my entire body wants me to do and I'm just kinda going with the flow. And that's okay.