Loving Too Hard Isn't My Flaw, It's Your Loss

March 06, 2017

I fall a little bit in love with everyone that I meet, so you'll forgive me if I come on too strong. I've learned the tough lesson that life is short and the reason we are here is each other. We need each other. 

I am loyal to a fault. I like to think of myself as strong-willed and independent, but if I care about you, I think I can easily be taken advantage of. I am more than capable of saying no and voicing my opinions (and the people in my life will tell you how often I do so), but I will give up what I want most to make you happy and to keep you in my life.

I am an extroverted introvert. I don't do well in groups — my ex-boyfriend's family can definitely attest to that — because I freeze up and I can't contribute and I want to become an actual potato. If we talk one on one, you'll probably love me though (although debatable, but I think I'm great). I really care about people and even though on the inside I don't want to be around y'all most of the time, relationships are what make this life worth living and loving. I think my favorite thing about myself is my ability to make people realize how special they are, and I feel obligated to do so. I know how hard and lonely life can be, and if I can make that experience easier for just one person, then that's all I need. 


I have major FOMO, and my anxiety and depression make me miss out on things more often than I'd like. I do feel like a burden sometimes. I have a hard time reaching out to people, especially if I feel like I'm always the one doing so. I'm bitter and stubborn but if I want to see you, I really need you to try your best to accommodate (because that's not always going to be the case). Regardless of what you believe, we are here to grow and change — none of which can happen without loving the people in our lives. And you should feel so lucky to be loved by me.

I know that I'm clingy and demanding and annoying, but I like to think those can be endearing qualities if you want them to be. I've been turned down and pushed away more times than I can count, but I know my worth. I'm cute and I have a great personality and if you don't want that in your life then fine. Am I gonna cry about it? Yeah. But loving too hard isn't my flaw, it's your loss. 

Yours truly,
McKay

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  1. Hi I feel like I'm stalking your blog now kind of but it's OK because I'm not actually creepy I just like you and I really enjoy all the things you write. Also I'm super glad I actually live close to you now because I like being your friend and seeing your face.

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  2. McKay, your confidence inspires me! I love reading the way you feel about yourself and seeing it in all the cute & gorgeous pictures you share. It helps me find the courage to do the same.

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    1. Thanks for always being so supportive, Jessica! I adore you!

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